Stupid

Well..... I wanted to change the backgroung on my blog, but can't seem to get anything to work. So it my look stupid for awhile. If you have any suggestions just comment.

Yesss!

It is finally Friday and I am officialy out of school till Monday. I think its great that everytime the bell rings at the end of the day Friday I get this relieved feeling inside. I mean most things wear off or aren't good enough anymore. Take drugs for example. But I am never dissapointed when that last bell rings. Especially since I have Spanish and Science as my last two classes, (which happen to be my worst two classes.) So I am sitting at my computer happily blogging with a pile of candy beside me. Actually let me rephrase that to let you know how happy I am right now. I am delightfully blogging and singing in joy with a pile of candy wrappers beside me. This could never get old.

Awkward

I think we can all agree that walking down a highschool hallway is awkward. You know how it is when someone walks by you and you brush hands. Especialy when its a guy, not even to mention a guy you like. Or your arms are just slightly swinging by your side but everyone is so packed in the hallway that you keep accidentaly touching peoples buts. Or when you don't know where to look so you keep having awkward eye contact with the strangest of people. I don't know about you but thats my awkward highschool life.

P.S. I know I used the word awkward alot, but I guess you'll just have to get over it.

Procrastination Has Gone To Level 2

Lets take a look at my lists now.

1. Make a fire
2. Do the dishes (Now there's only half as many dishes as before.)
3. Read my English homework
4. Write a paragraph on my English homework
5. Clean my room
6. Clean the living room
7. Contemplate on life's deepest questions
8. Get ready for bed (which includes a whole list of its own)
9. Set my alarm for tomorrow
10. Get some good rest

1. Wake up on time
2. Get Garrett to wake up (which is not easy)
3. Get ready (which includes hair, makeup and clothes)
4. Make Garrett and I lunch (because he is very incapable, or just lazy)
5. Gather up my homework and try not to forget anything
6. Rush Garrett out the door so we'll be on time for seminary
7. Try and get through the day without killing anyone
8. Take a deep breath and start the walk home

Well I did pretty good on the second list but not so good on the first. #1 on the second list is not crossed out because I was and hour from waking up on time. Needless to say thats why #4 isn't crossed out because I didn't have time to make lunches. So today around 1:00 Garrett and I went to McD's for a rushed lunch. Thank goodness Gunnison has open campus lunch or I would be starving, or possibly dead. Well I won't bore you with anymore of my to do lists but I will say they aren't shrinking. If anything with every passing day they're getting longer.

Procrastination

Well.... I have alot to do with my parents being gone and I have gotten 1 thing on that list done. Lets see what's left.

1. Make a fire
2. Do the dishes
3. Read my English homework
4. Write a paragraph on my English homework
5. Clean my room
6. Clean the living room
7. Contemplate on life's deepest questions
8. Get ready for bed (which includes a whole list of its own)
9. Set my alarm for tomorrow
10. Get some good rest

Then after going to bed and not getting enough sleep I have to start over with a whole new list.

1. Wake up on time
2. Get Garrett to wake up (which is not easy)
3. Get ready (which includes hair, makeup and clothes)
4. Make Garrett and I lunch (because he is very incapable, or just lazy)
5. Gather up my homework and try not to forget anything
6. Rush Garrett out the door so we'll be on time for seminary
7. Try and get through the day without killing anyone
8. Take a deep breath and start the walk home
9. Basically add on the first list and my day will be pretty darn acurate, except for maybe I'll have Geometry, Spanish, more English, and Personal Fitness for homework

I know who gives homework in P.E. Um... my teacher!!  (Great :(  Well if your still reading this I'm very surprised. I thought no one would get through my lists. So since you sat through that I'll let you in on a little secret. I'm done rambling. Aren't you glad ;)

Ice Cream

Sometimes I just want to scream at someone. To tell them my whole life story and every problem that has ever crossed my rocky path. But on this lonely road of my life. People who will just sit and listen are not easy to come by. When I'm having a bad day EVERYTHING is a big deal. Especialy the little things that normaly wouldn't bother me. They are the things that just push my buttons and set me off like a broken radio switching from channel to channel.  So even though I can only name a couple of "big bad" things that happened to me I feel like there is a long list that could stretch past the milky way and into the deep abyss of the cosmos. Maybe when I get back from my volleyball banquet I'll have time to elaberate on this long list of mishappenings. Or maybe I'll be in a better mood and would rather not indulge on this dreary subject. Instead I'd indulge on an icecream sundae with hot fudge slowly dripping from a mountian of my dairy desert that should only be meant for angels. But somehow it crept into the world of imperfect humans. It is a shame that something as glorious as icecream must be shared with the rest of the world. But I guess for now I'll just wait to see if the rest of my day has more unfortunate things to add to my list.

Reality

Reality comes crashing in on you at times you thought you could go no lower but today reality brought me down low. What do you do, when you think that you were destined to meet this certain person, but reality says your only second best? What do you do when you want to speak, but reality says no one realy wants to hear? What do you do when your torn between two things that you love, and reality says you can only have one? What do you do, when you make a mistake and reality says its too late? What do you do, when your stuck in a fantansy and then reality pulls you from it like rain from clowds? I guess reality's questions can't realy be answered.